thinking is difficult

I am writing about a couple of observations this week in communication and observing other peoples dialogue with people (not with me directly) on popular social networks, It saddens me to see people who get stroppy and sulk if I or others do not agree with every single thing that they believe to be true. I do not have to have every single friend mirror every single thought and philosophy I have.

Ofcourse, there is a consensus agreement to a majority of things that make us friends in the first place, such as seeking what is not true and what is true, as a new consensus of new knowledge because we know that the current archaic conventional consensus of reality is corrupted on many levels. Through this we nurture a general respect for our friends, on an individual level too and appreciate their perspective on reality and their own version of it and even the way they communicate it, we all have our own perception what is reality and what is truth, no one perception is the same. I love that people have differences and their own view of the world to me.

Hey, you can even believe that Global Warming will fry and melt us and that Climate Change is a new thing, without looking at the 450, 000 year data from the Vostok Ice cores, or you can disagree with my belief that Free Energy can be a reality and has been suppressed for a long, long time. We don’t have to agree on what spiritual or religious practices either of us has adopted, you can believe the Earth is flat too, but don’t accuse me of not being open minded enough because I do not agree with you there.

It’s more along the lines of level of consciousness when it comes to this following list. I do draw the line such as it is not acceptable to kill and torture animals to be cruel or for entertainment or to destroy the environment as we are, that everything you read in the paper or see on the news is true, or that 9.11 was carried out by Muslim terrorists, if you still believe that then good luck and good bye, or if you still think governments and politicians really have your best interests at heart, there we will draw the line on friendship.

My point is, that I have some amazing friends but lately many have shown rather immature sides and everyone seems so  defensive, when I or others, voice a difference of opinion regarding one matter or another. Why do you want a mirror image of yourself? Why does every comment or opinion have to be agreed with? I am not interested in mirror images of myself, what is there to learn if that is all your friendships are? We all need to shift and grow and maybe we can encourage one another to do so when some of us do need to question what we previously thought of as true, but now learned otherwise, through a piece of information exchanged to us by a friend, it may have been information we did not agree with before or believe, but then we changed and grew, or we might have de-programmed some old programming.

Allow other some time and space to have information assimilation, allow people their humanity. Let your friends make mistakes, learn and grow, a true friend allows those things in others.

You might as well as unfriend me if you want a mirror image of yourself, in fact I would prefer that. I really would prefer people to have some level of emotional maturity around discussing, debating and arguing, rather than through a display of sulkiness……

Personally, I like and appreciate people for their differences and I can tolerate some far out beliefs that I don’t have to agree with, I think that shows a little maturity and maybe a level of open minded that surpasses the need to insult them, attack them or sulk.

Another thing I think is an odd reflection of mainstream government thought crime manifestation is seeing people in my social network of so called awake and aware people, criticizing and attacking others for not doing what they, themselves would do or feel is more righteous. Yet that person they criticize is doing some great things by providing much needed support and positivity for others, unless people are shills or trolls or a plastic shaman, they do not deserve such criticism or attack or character assassinations, just because they are not doing something the way you think things should be done.

We are all walking our own individual paths here, what works for you, doesn’t necessarily mean it will be right for the next person, we are all doing what we feel is right for each one of us because that is our own personal path and it is why each of us is here.

We do not all need to be doing exactly the same thing the same way or saying the same things to get this work done. We each have an equal value and role here in how we choose to apply our intent with adding to growing awareness or providing services to help heal or support others and education, spreading important truths and relevant information to our new truer more harmonious truth consensus.

This kind of judgemental thinking is not really aligned to what a balanced or healthy kind of judgemental or critical thinking is, which is more aligned with defining ethics and morals of what right and wrong, justices and corruption, good and bad and cruelty and kindness are in society and community. This is not that kind of healthy judgement or criticism. This form of being judgemental is more along the lines of being self-righteous and simply serves to fragment community that is more aware and powerful if it practised unity and tolerance and less of the things that the mainstream imperialistic society is dictating to us at the moment…. it is interesting to see that the mainstream phenomenon that we talk about as being wrong is still being played out here on a subconscious level in the dynamic here. Just an interesting observation

Don’t allow fragmentation by becoming the thought crime police of the alternative movement on what other awake and aware people should be doing with their time,or how they should be awakening, focus on your own work and self-empowerment. If we can work on qualities that enhance and strengthen community and our overall goal towards social transformation, freedom and sustainability for preserving the Earth then we can take a shot at going beyond self righteousness and ego. Each of us is a flower in the garden of life.

By Carlita Shaw, author of The Silent Ecocide-the environmental crisis is a crisis of human consciousness

Art work by Colette Kim Shaw.

Art work by Colette Shaw.

A great misconception ”Think positive thoughts and only positivity and love always, positivity and love will then be seen in your world and will happen to you” .  To a small degree, feeling and thinking positively can help how we experience life when navigating through a challenging situation and what we receive back from that experience, but if we could change negative forces or evil people around us by merely sending them love, they would have all disappeared by now and we would be omnipotent beings that would have also gotten rid of the oligarchy, paedophiles and evil in general and we would say goodbye to the suffering and injustices in the world! New Agers don’t fully understand how it really works, so what they end up doing becomes toxic to themselves and others. They miss out a lot of the details behind how it really works.

We do not fully create our reality, none of us consensually agreed to being born on a prison planet as slaves to a psychopathic elite that behave like parasitic entities that have a lower level on of consciousness, any energy we send them, they feed off, good and bad, they are like benthic dwellers of the ocean, they will feed off anything we give them, the fact that we acknowledge them and respond to them via fear or frustration or anger even feeds them, people are entirely delusional in thinking they can transform evil with fluffy pink loving thoughts, it is also rather arrogant to think that.

Another toxic New Age belief is that people who become victims of torture and rape, including children, brought it upon themselves solely because they were thinking negative thoughts or not thinking positively all the time or because they are working out some karma, so that would mean that the Native American, Jewish and other genocides happened because these souls agreed to partake in it or that they are to blame for thinking negatively, in that context you can see how insane, immature and flawed the New Age concept is in attempting to justify these great injustices.

To what degree are we all One? All human beings  represent different levels of consciousness, emitting different frequencies, we do not all share the same imprint of consciousness, we are manifesting very different levels of it, therefore we are not all one in that sense. We simply share the fact that consciousness flows through each of us. But not at the same frequency, every person expresses a unique fingerprint of a level of frequency. Then in this sense, we are all part of the field of consciousness, but certainly not all one at our frequencies which are totally unique, though some of us may resonate into groups of frequencies, where we feel we have a common tribe.

However, when it comes to each of us in relation to our environment or nature and fellow creatures, we are inseparable and not seeing ourselves as one with nature is destructive to nature and to important ecosystem and to fellow species that we co-habit this Planet with. The illusion of separation with nature is destructive.

Reality is multi-dimensional, not just polarized but holographic too and part of our evolution of understanding is to move from the polarized reality that we currently live in to the holographic universe which is of a higher level of awareness and which requires a deeper understanding from each of us, in how we truly are responsible for co-creating, we are not creators of our reality but we are CO-CREATORS, working with consciousness itself.

Some of us are gathering now to reshape and investigate what our consensus of truth really  is, as we have awoken to see beyond the veils and corruption of the old consensus. We are choosing to opt out of having our sensus (perception, sense) conned…by the cult-ural consensus of the global governed mind or the global con-sensus of conventional reality, pertaining to convention or agreement…..the truth is much more awareness expanding.

All human beings  demonstrate the polarized world of good and evil and are analogous to the diversity of creatures in the oceans or forests, there is a great diversity of  consciousness expressed through human beings, good and bad, intelligent and stupid, awake or asleep, the infinite frequencies or expressions of consciousness.

It helps to understand this  and see the lower or bad frequencies or expressions to be like the benthic ugly sea creatures dwelling on the bottom of the ocean in the darkness and cold environment that they have chosen to evolve to. They are an expression of the biodiversity of consciousness, or as part of the infinite will of god consciousness, there is little we can do about their existence, sending love won’t change their internal make-up or stop them affecting us or the rest of the world in the way they do. They are part of the bigger picture, they exist and show us there is ‘free will’ in existing states of consciousness. Sending evil positive thoughts does nothing but feed it with your precious energy, that is true and it would be arrogant to assume we can change evil with such a practice of sending love and light. We can send loving thoughts to people that are not purely evil or purely cold or without sentience. We can send loving thoughts and feelings to friends and family or people we do not know that well and contribute in some vibrational way to their healing. However, this practice doesn’t help an animal abuser or child abuser or a psychopath or sociopath, these are stuck levels of consciousness that are incapacitated due to mental illness and delusions or even what some call a pschopathic virus.

However, we are able to affect our own immediate reality and our own lives with how we change how we think and feel, this does affect our own immediate lives,  but it does not directly change the way anyone else is, it may change the way we perceive them to be.  All free will of all beings wouldn’t be a universal law if we each had some influence or control over someone else’s will.

We are only CO-CREATORS of our reality, and this works in a more of a quantum way, a way we have to really understand, in order to see how it works, to apply it to transform our immediate reality, though it can’t be used to stop injustices or traumatic experiences happening to us always.

To a certain degree, being aware that we can co-create, allows us to transform what we desire or want to create in our lives but it can’t change a negative being, that is for sure . As I said earlier, we are now choosing to opt out of having our perception of reality, our sensus conned by conventional media,  culture and society, awakening is a process of investigating and reshaping or rebuilding knowledge and reclaiming suppressed knowledge and real truths that we are collectively agreeing as a new reality, a process needed to shift away from the old consensus. As collectively it is our way to construct a new paradigm with building bridges to it out of new constructs of new truths and lost knowledge, each one serves as a building block to a new consensus reality, in that process we are learning and discovering collectively what real freedom and sovereignty means.

So when we are being co-creators and seeking truth and new knowledge inside as well as outside, we actually take responsibility of ourselves. Not forgetting to balance this with compassion and kindness through self acceptance to acknowledging our darkest and most human sides that reflect our insecurities, fears, guilt and shame and sadness which are a result of the deformations of the old consensus of reality, a global illusion. Breaking away and allowing our vulnerability and sadness, and sorrow, grief and loss or disgust and anger are feelings that allow us our humanity and indicate what has been wrong for so long and what is injustice and what is a violation of our freedom or a violation of respect to life.

We can each practice on a personal level to extend that awareness of vulnerability and our fallibility which we share with dear friends and family, to allow ourselves and those we love the room to  make mistakes, to be flawed, to forgive them and allow them the space for their humanity,  to have room to  grow and evolve as we would like that space to be forgiven when we can still learn from making mistakes or not meaning to hurt others. Whereas, denying these fallible aspects of our humanity is a guaranteed way to avoid healing and avoid evolving our consciousness or deepening our emotional understanding of what it means to be human in this world and in the grander scheme of things.

We have to do the internal work and shift any insecurities, fear, and baggage or any unconscious resistance that may stop us from allowing flow in our lives. Life responds to our thoughts and emotions, it is a giant external mirror, mirroring our internal processes. So if we are not getting the message and keep repeating a mistake, we may see that pattern manifesting externally and therefore, we see repeats happening until we actually get what life is trying to teach us, then we can resolve the issue by healing the cause.

New Agers deny their humanity. and fallibility of themselves and others by avoiding the shadow side. this is essential to understanding before we can see what we want to manifest in our lives or for the future of the planet, we have to deal with the internal painful stuff before we can truly have a clear signal of co creation with our reality because consciousness or life itself unfolds as a screen of our perception and if something is blocking that perception such as internal denial, it will create an unseen obstacle to achieving what you want to see unfold in your life until you get the lesson and see it and work on transforming that fallibility to something you feel is truer to your lifes purpose.

New Age people don’t do this, they don’t do any real inner work, they get caught up in the ego trap or self righteousness of positive thinking, some may be popular speakers involved in self development or something in the alternative realm and they have become addicted to the attention and prestige from followers that they have carved out for themselves, so they get caught up in just keeping a public face of positivity that feeds their egos and makes them money rather than their truer nature or allowing others to accept their truer nature of fallibility. These have become toxic practices that deny our humanity and fallibility, as there is no such thing as perfection or continual positive thinking, or continual blissful states that can be maintained forever, its not possible and therefore denies our humanity and our ability to feel everything else that is possible to feel because we as human beings wired to feel an array of emotions that point as signals to our truer nature.

Every emotional state and thought or thing is part of the path, we have the free will and existence here and now to experience it all,  because we can and that is the infinitum of free will and the beauty of embracing our humanity. The testimonial  of this is the very existence of those ‘evil’ beings at their current vibrational level, it is also testimonial to the existence of  the purest and most enlightened, kind and selfless of beings that walk among us, that are either noted for their enlightenment or more usually are the unsung forgotten heroes and heroines of past and modern times.

We have to understand that the worst of us and the best of us are part of the rich diversity of infinite beings at this time and of past, this reflects infinite consciousness, or God consciousness as some might say. We are Co-Creators, but we are not omnipotent beings that can transform evil beings or make them disappear with loving thoughts. Though we can free ourselves from the domination of their control and it seems that this is our desire and ultimate goal as we awaken to this, in order to restore harmony to all beings and to stop Earth being destroyed through the greed of corporate imperialism and the destructive illusion that we are separate from our environment.

Neville Goddard was one of the first ever people to truly understand how we are co creating our reality and how it really works,. He explained that the foundation of all expression is consciousness. We notice to an extent, if we feel negative, we can draw in negativity and the same if we feel good, we can draw in positivity, this is the part of co-creation that is evident and can be applied to our lives, but we cannot use it to change the free will or consciousness of other beings. What New Age people miss is the inner work that involves getting their hands dirty to truly be accepting of oneself is accepting those aspects that New Agers like to deny as healthy expressions of emotion, such as expressing anger, depression, sadness, vulnerability, shame, guilt, frustration and insecurity which are all indicators that point to a deeper more sacred journey and are healthy expressions towards healing on that journey.  Those emotions are valuable sign posts that we must be truer to our deepest part of  not only what we see as human nature but what  we each can learn of what we  hold in our souls.

These negative feelings indicate a need to move through us, their function is to direct us with their signals to what a truer personal path is and by teaching us what it is to be fundamentally human and beautifully flawed and perhaps indicating we need to unbecome rather than become anything, at the same time as holding purity at a soul level. The most challenging and loving thing we can do is to allow our humanity, NOT to deny these aspects of ourselves.

New Agers practice inner denial, and denial of external realities, in a time where practical action is required to change a war on consciousness and destruction of the planet and its species. A ‘positive’ thinking regime is not going to change these external problems or make them go away. This kind of denial is  unhealthy to oneself and very passive aggressive to others, I have met some real pieces of work that claim to be ‘teachers’ and ‘gurus’ or ‘enlightened’, that are still trapped in this mode of thinking, the inner violence they reign on themselves and others is just what the elite want to see happen.

Neville Goddard was one of the first speakers on consciousness in the 1940s and 50s to see the value of touring lectures on how we are co-creators and we can use our imaginations to achieve that which we desire to unfold in our lives. However, most people will have never heard of him and people that have ironically gained a lot of success out of telling others how to manifest their material wealth and using positive thinking in those terms, could very well have taken some of Neville’s concepts and only used skewed aspects of Neville Goddard’s books and insights to make profit and never mentioned the true pioneer behind these concepts, let alone the essential aspects of becoming a co-creator. That is doing the inner work and not avoiding one’s own insecurities, negativity or fallibilities. Most other people that talk about manifesting reality avoid this important part of the process before arriving at being able to co-create what we want to see in our lives or the world around us.

Neville Goddard said that- ”Try as man will, he cannot find a cause of manifestation other than his consciousness of being. Man thinks he has found, the cause of disease in germs, the cause of war in conflicting political ideologies and greed. AIl such discoveries of man, catalogued as the essence of Wisdom, are foolishness in the eyes of God.There is only one power and this power is God consciousness, It kills;it makes alive; it wounds; it heals; it does all things, good, bad or indifferent. This is the aspect that comes into play where we are co-creators with quantum reality- Man moves in a world that is nothing more or less than his consciousness objectified. Not knowing this, he wars against his reflections while he keeps alive the light and the images which project the reflections. “I AM the light of the world.” I AM (consciousness)is the light. That which I am conscious of being (my conception of myself) -such as “I am rich,” “I am healthy,”I am free”-are the images. The world is the mirror magnifying all that I AM conscious of being. 

Stop trying to change the world, since it is only the mirror. Man’s attempt to change’ the world by force is as fruitless as breaking a mirror in the hope of changing his face. Leave the mirror and change your face. Leave the world alone and change your conceptions of yourself. The reflection then will be satisfactory.

Freedom or imprisonment, satisfaction or frustration can only be differentiated by the consciousness of being. Regardless of your problem, its duration or its magnitude, careful attention to these instructions, will in an amazingly short time eliminate even the memory of the problem. Ask yourself this question: “How would I feel if I were free?” The very moment you sincerely ask this question the answer comes. No man can tell another the satisfaction of his desire fulfilled.It remains for each within himself to experience the feeling and joy of this automatic change of consciousness.

The feeling or thrill that comes to one in response to his self-questioning is the Father state of consciousness or Foundation Stone upon which the conscious change is built. Just how this feeling will embody itself no one knows, as it is different for each individual, the Father (consciousness) has ways that no man knows; it is the unalterable law. This is how our thoughts affect our reality, or how co-creation works- AIl things express their nature. As you wear a feeIing, it becomes your nature. It might take a moment or a year-it is entirely dependent upon the degree of conviction.

As doubts vanish and you can feel “I AM this, “you begin to develop the fruit or the nature of the thing you are feeling yourself to be. When a person buys a new hat or pair of shoes, he thinks everyone knows that they are new. He feels unnatural with his newly acquired apparel until it becomes a part of him. The same applies to the wearing of the new states of consciousness. When you ask yourself the question,”How would I feel if my desire were at this moment realized? “the automatic reply, until it is properly conditioned by time and use, is actually disturbing. The period of adjustment to realize this potential of consciousness is comparable to the newness of the wearing apparel.

 Not knowing that consciousness is ever out-picturing itself in conditions round about you, like Lot’s wife you continually look back upon your problem and again become hypnotized by its seeming naturalness. ” Heed the words of Jesus (salvation): Leave all and follow me.” Let the dead bury the dead.” Your problem might have you so hypnotized by its seeming reality and naturalness that you find it difficult to wear the new feeling or consciousness of your saviour. You must assume this garment if you would have results. The foundation stone (consciousness)which the builders rejected(would not wear)is the chief cornerstone, and other foundations no man can lay.- Neville Goddard.

Neville Goddard is author of Your Faith is Your Fortune, Awakened Imagination and numerous other books on consciousness published in the 40s and 50s, he was one of the earliest speakers on Consciousness that travelled to give lectures across the USA, he was born in Barbados . Neville translated the Bible as the first psychological interpretation of consciousness that has been completely misunderstood and he’s work shows how to use it to create and manifest that which you desire, through the conception of intention (Mary) and the imagination (Jesus) son of God (Consciousness)

By Carlita Shaw, author of The Silent Ecocide-the environmental crisis is a crisis of human consciousness

Listen to a podcast I made on Awakened Imagination and more information about Neville Goddards work.


A Hopi Elder Speaks: “You have been telling the people that this is the Eleventh Hour, now you must go back and tell the people that this is the Hour. And there are things to be considered . . .

Where are you living?
What are you doing?
What are your relationships?
Are you in right relation?
Where is your water?
Know your garden.
It is time to speak your Truth.
Create your community.
Be good to each other.
And do not look outside yourself for the leader.”
Then he clasped his hands together, smiled, and said, “This could be a good time!”
“There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold on to the shore. They will feel they are torn apart and will suffer greatly.
“Know the river has its destination. The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep our eyes open, and our heads above water. And I say, see who is in there with you and celebrate. At this time in history, we are to take nothing personally, Least of all ourselves. For the moment that we do, our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt.

“The time for the lone wolf is over. Gather yourselves! Banish the word struggle from your attitude and your vocabulary. All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration.

Mute swan Cygnus olor gliding across a mist covered lake at dawn

There is such a thin line between Life and Death, please take time to value the incredibleness of living in this realm even with the tough times. Not all of us have great health, therefore we feel the delicacy of that line and pay homage to what is on both sides.- Carlita ❤

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mysticalAre you ready for change yet don’t know what to do next? Do you feel like there is something holding you back? That you feel tired and drained most of the time, and that your relationships and work life are unfulfilling?

Do you know what is stopping you from receiving the health, relationships and connection you’ve been calling into your life? Over the years we have all developed belief systems from our culture, education, and heritage that may have kept us from realizing our full potential. There are parts of us that have splintered and fragmented due to experiencing trauma in this lifetime and others. What if you could reclaim those aspects of yourself, and your soul? Because if you are able to reconnect and fully embody your soul, your purpose and life’s calling move to the forefront, and every decision and choice will be informed from a place of knowing and being.

ChaskyRecover lost…

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I wrote this in support for Matt Diaz whom is dealing with some people criticizing him for being a new body positive icon because he had an surgical help on his stomach to lose weight, I personally don’t think this has much of an effect with his accomplishments, as despite such surgery I know that it is still hard work and discipline to eat healthily, exercise and work on one’s inner self esteem .


A photo of me when I was a teenager at a festival in London.

I am now 40 yrs old and have had to deal with prejudices for many reasons including my beliefs my entire life, lately it is still for my opinions! Many of my friends do not know this about me because I don’t talk about my past. I also had an operation to remove a tumour in my nasal cavity and the back of my lower and upper jaw when I was 14, then another one at  the age of 24 in the same area. I never had any scars externally on my face because I had a surgeon that did some pioneering surgery where the tumours were removed differently, but the doctors did their duty and told me what to expect, which was facial scarring and a speech impediment and more….

I was preparing mentally and emotionally for facial scarring at the age of 14 despite the result turning out fine, then also in my twenties but yet again all went well despite a year’s recovery and liquid food that whole year. I will say that this was during the days when the good old British National Health Service was still functioning well.

Having that experience at 14 years old taught me that the problem was not what I looked like, the problem was how people REACTED to how I looked……I was going to be fine the way I was, I just had to prepare myself for the way other people reacted….that is always the case, people are always going to be judgemental about others inside and outside, until human consciousness changes. So we have to just ignore the judgements, don’t even defend yourself, march onward and upwards with your head held high.

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